There were a couple of small brightly coloured garden birds dotting around one of the apple trees one morning this week. When they fly, they are so graceful and accurate in their gliding. But when perched on the tree, they seem to go clockwork. The are still, then move swiftly to a new position, and still again. And so it repeats, seemingly randomly and nervously, until they fly off.
I suspect (you will have picked up already that I am no twitcher, even though the birds might be) that, because they have eyes on the sides of their head, they have to stop and take in their 360 view, gather more info from a different vantage point, process, and repeat as necessary.
A lot of trial and error gathering of info is needed before the cruising can be done. You can’t have one without the other.
Sometimes, when engaging with God, it can seem like a disjointed searching and engaging, involving effort and perseverance. Other times there is a series of connections making sense of many loose ends and questions.
We do not have eyes, ears or senses that can take in the whole of God. But He is there to be sensed. Paul used the expression of it being like seeing through a murky mirror.
Enjoy what you see, strive to comprehend more, do not lose your appetite, and you will not be short-changed. And make use of those around you who have the same heart and ample experience.